I realized that all things are passing, they are like plant that blooms in the moning but fades in the evening , nothing is permanent only You , I couldn't know what will happen tomorrow , sometimes I'm stuck with the dream of believing that all things will be well, I'm was so frustrated but this is a normal feeling knowing that to trust you Lord is my consolation and submitting myself to your providential care is my desire, nothing is impossible for one who believes though I felt forsaken and punished.

Be gracious and help me this darkness consumes my soul and the guilt of my sins engulf the totality of my being, but I know if  I would ask for pardon , you will forgive me, You are Divine Mercy, pleease heal me. help me to become holy, be my contentment, may I always seek for true happiness that can only be found in service and love, may I see you in my neighbour and may I be seen as an instrument of love. Fiat voluntas tua!